Friday, February 10, 2006
hmmm.. kinda regret i posted the previous post.. but i wldnt take it off cos if i did, it'll only show tt im guilty, which im not. =)
well...i thought over it le.. perhaps that person had her own problems that day so she didnt sound good.. and hmmm.. yea lo
today got CO performance at old folks' home... i cried there.. was so sad!! well.. there was this session we were supposed to go around and wishing the old folks happy new year..however.. there is this old man... feishi was talking to him and den i went to wish him happy new year..only to find out his eyes was teary and he face looked soo soooo sad..... so we asked him wad happened... den he say.. my mum just passed away yesterday...and my first reaction was.."he's like 70+ this year.. how can his mum died yesterday?" but nevertheless i still felt sad.. den he continued, "there's no time already.. my mum's body have not cremate fully.. only halfway.." and stuffs like that..waa... den i couldnt control and i cried.. in my memory i only rmbed how the folks would like it if u chat and accompany them.. but i forgot how sad it would be if u saw the miserable and heart wrenching sight... so i went off to cry la.. so sad.. den finally i stopped crying.. so pai seh lor.. =s... den i went to tell jiat yue abt wad happened.. and den she started crying too.. so i cried again.. really very very sad lor.. imagine the old man.. living in this kinda sad period... i looked at him from far and i can see lots of wrinkles on his face.. mainly due to frowns.. i supposed he must have been devastated from his mum's death and hence he became like that... it really made my heart ache.. how could anyone live with the most hauting memories constantly on his mind all the while?
later was our performance, and an interacting session after that... the old man was peeling his orange.. and he looked so cute despite his age.. den me, jiat yue and huilin went to help him... den he asked me.. "ni you mei you zhu fan de dong xi....?(do you have any cooking utensils?)" and i asked him issit that he needed a fork for his orange.. den he said.."my mum passed away yesterday... i need to cook the food..........." den i saw jy running away from the corner of my eye.... haha.. den he talked abt cremation of his mum's body again.. i felt very sad too.. but i noe he gt dunno wad mental illness.. that made him cannot think well.. or else it wld be a serious depression.. sighs... so sad. so aft tt i felt like crying again.. but try to control lah.. haha.. feels so sad rite... this is only interact's club service learning project so i had very little interaction with the old ppl..... imagine CO's own service learning..... i think i wldnt be able to take all this emotion turmoil.
-when are you
coming back? ;
